Friday, September 28, 2012

That Awkward Moment!

When you are inside the elevator with this cute guy and all you can do is stare at the elevator console waiting for your floor number to lit.

When you eat that piece of cake that is not supposed to be yours.

When a friend abruptly pick up that table napkin, skim it to his face when you knew you used that with your runny nose.

When you are in a car with a colleague trying to figure out how to fill the dead air.

When you speak to a guy in a public utility vehicle, thinking he was your old friend back in high school then realized he was not, now you're talking to a look-alike and a total stranger.

When you check your mobile phone even though you know there is no new message or call just to appear you're doing something.

When you tried to make a small talk with your colleague and the question you ask is the most stupid and obvious question not worth asking.

When it's your first day in the office still waiting for your laptop and all you can do is stare at your cube, stare at your colleague's cube and stare as people pass by your cube.

Sunday, September 23, 2012

Five Signs That I'm Getting Older

I can't believe I'm writing this post. Every normal adult I know, in one way or another finds every way out not to talk about getting older. I even knew friends who stop counting their age at 28. But in this post, I am embracing the idea of it.

Let me start with the quotation, 
Growing old is compulsory, growing up is optional.
We can never run away from aging, no one is exempted. But we can choose to dance with it gracefully. As I realized this, I find myself writing evidences that I am going through life's wear and tear.

1. As a child I am one step away to throwing a tantrum whenever we go to the mall and my "nanay" or  mom will bring us to the home world section for her to check curtains, bed sheets and kitchen utensils. My young and active mind cannot comprehend why my mom need to spend so much time in this lifeless wing of textiles and fragile items, when we could have been playing or eating at a restaurant. Those are the days... because now I find so much satisfaction finding a good deal of curtains and kitchen appliance.  

2. Before I find it odd to see ladies greet each other by the cheek-to-cheek gesture or "beso-beso" in Tagalog. I have this question in the back of my mind, why does adult does weird things like this when they can just throw one big smile or high five to each other. But now I find myself practicing the same expression whenever I meet my friends, dgroup sisters and previous colleagues ;))

3. Now one of my stress buster activity is going to the supermarket, taking that pull cart, passing through each lanes to complete my grocery list. Then I realized I am just like my mom. Head shakes. Back when I was a grade-schooler, my mom never fails to go to the grocery and bring home our weekly supplies. I even remember her cheerfully filling the cupboard with goods and I would never forget when she said once that seeing our shelves full is enough to make her smile. Now I understand her better.

4. More than anytime in my life, I am more concern of eating vegetables and healthy food nowadays. No to pork, less soda, more fruits. Sign of aging? Bring it!

5. When I was younger, my definition of reunions and birthday parties is buffet and desserts table. Now beyond food and cocktails, I look forward to familiar faces, family, relatives, old friends, colleagues and classmates. I now see people and relationships and learned to appreciate them more than anything. 

When You Thought I Wasn’t Looking

Heard this poem in CCF during one of the Sunday services with one of my favorite pastor Bro. Bong Saquing. 

Another Eureka moment!

Indeed "Children have never been good at listening to their elders, but they have never failed to imitate them."

When You Thought I Wasn’t Looking
by Mary Rita Schilke Korzan
When you thought I wasn’t looking
You hung my first painting on the refrigerator
And I wanted to paint another.
When you thought I wasn’t looking
You fed a stray cat
And I thought it was good to be kind to animals.
When you thought I wasn’t looking
You baked a birthday cake just for me
And I knew that little things were special things.
When you thought I wasn’t looking
You said a prayer
And I believed there was a God that I could always talk to.
When you thought I wasn’t looking
You kissed me good-night
And I felt loved.
When you thought I wasn’t looking
I saw tears come from your eyes
And I learned that sometimes things hurt—
But that it’s alright to cry.
When you thought I wasn’t looking
You smiled
And it made me want to look that pretty too.
When you thought I wasn’t looking
You cared
And I wanted to be everything I could be.
When you thought I wasn’t looking—
I looked . . .
And wanted to say thanks
For all those things you did
When you thought I wasn’t looking.

Saturday, September 22, 2012

Beyond Life

Life is like a vehicle that could take us where we want to go... Boundless... 
The people in our lives are the fuel that keeps us going...

Life is like a tree... Growing... 
Our loved ones are the roots that nourish us and keep us grounded... 

But behind Life's grandest promises
Life is short...  

Today, I remember one dear friend slash former colleague slash sister of mine who's smile and presence always sets a jolly, open and warm mood, giving the group the sense of belonging-ness. If there's even such a word like that. 

Liza. You are one lighthearted, cheerful spirit. Carefree. Someone who works hard but party harder. I will miss that.

Thank you for all the good times even the bad. Thank you for the friendship we've shared in CPI. My prayers are with you and your family.
She(Neytiri) said all energy is only borrowed, and one day you have to give it back. --Jake Sully (Avatar)   

It's true though that whatever we have right now is temporary, our lives, our family, our health, our career. But the genuine love we share to others, the hope we choose to extend, the joy we impart, the time we spend with family and friends... This would make us immortal beings in their hearts and in the face of this world. 

Let's choose to live for the essential things in life. And learn to major on the major. 

Friday, September 7, 2012

God's Grace Pursues Us!

I am writing this not only because I want to remember but because I don't want to forget. Forget the faithfulness of the Big Guy in my life.

This is a sequel of my praise item #2 in my previous blog post, when I reconcile with God to stay in my previous company and stay in the Philippines for some time until I get a "Go" signal from Him to move. And believe me, it's not that easy, especially if every cell in your body tells you to pack, leave and explore, there's nothing's wrong with that anyway. But I consistently thanked Him for His word that never fails to serve as my compass when to move and in what direction. I will never forget His word for me last February of 2011.
"Stay in this land for a while, and I will be with you and will bless you." --Genesis 26:3
But you see, the "Curious Girlie" is not easily tamed down, mid of 2011 when I made attempts to apply for job locally. I was shortlisted on my first attempt but didn't made it in the final interview which was suppose to be a "formality" one. I got a job offer on my second job-hunting shot, but for some reason my schedule and the HR manager's schedule doesn't meet, for me to be able to sign the contract. T'was rescheduled three times, unbelievable! Only to be forgotten and eventually loose communication with the HR manager.

In the midst of my frustrations, I was reminded again by His promise in Genesis and settle to hold down my horses.

During the waiting time, God never fails to encourage me through His word. On the time I was struggling and skepticism tries to wear me down, He assures me that:
"I will do what you have asked. I will give you a wise and discerning heart, so that there will never have been anyone like you, nor will there ever be." --1 Kings 3:12
During the time I get frustrated because things are not happening the way I want it to be, this has become my prayer:
“... Lord, the God of Abraham, Isaac and Israel, let it be known today that you are God in Israel and that I am your servant and have done all these things at your command." --1 Kings 18:36
During the time of uncertainty and disbelief, God cheer me up with:
"This is an easy thing in the eyes of the Lord..." --2 Kings 3:18 
November, 2011 when my scripture reading leads me to the book of Judges. The same time I've been asking God once again for direction to move from Exist or outside the country. Bringing me to the following verses in the bible:
"Then they said to him, “Please inquire of God to learn whether our journey will be successful.” The priest answered them, “Go in peace. Your journey has the Lord’s approval.” --Judges 18:5-6
Hereon, I already knew that God just pressed the green button for me. That moment was ecstatic. I've been long waiting to hear these word from Him. I felt like a 6 year-old child who was given a fancy toy I've been craving for the longest time from my father.

Excited. Much.

As I write this post, I am now in Singapore, I was blessed with an exciting job and is currently working with one of the top financial companies in the country.

Grateful.

I was still in Manila June, 2012 when a headhunter called me up in my personal mobile phone asking if I am exploring jobs outside the country. Only to find out that he wanted me to be interviewed by their client in Singapore for a QA Analyst post. Isn't it encouraging to know that the Lord knew exactly what country I've been praying for. :)

Everything falls into places, just like the pieces of a jigsaw puzzle emerging to show the full picture. I undergo series of interviews, got a job offer by July, resigned from Exist, my pass was approved by Singapore's Ministry of Manpower inspite of their more stringent standards, pass the medical examinations, process my POEA papers and flew to Singapore by August 27. Whew!

Indeed miracles do happen! But often, only those who believe can witness the miracle unfolds.

Now I understand better, that my 2011 job hunting failures are blessings in disguise after all, because if I was able to find a job then maybe I will not have the desire to find a new job by 2012. God is awesome. Right!

As I look back I can't find the right words to describe how grateful I am on how the grace of God made all things possible. How He orchestrated everything in His perfect timing and perfect will to show me that He never forgets His promises. That even though I tend to question His ways, He proved to me that He is and will always be faithful. Forever.
"The Lord blesses us not because we are good, but because He is."
His favor to His children is more than what we ask, more than what we deserve. That's where GRACE comes in.

I hope this portion of my life somehow encourage you to remain trusting in God and to always seek Him for His direction. For He knows better than we do.

Let's all taste and see that the Lord is good :)

Five Things I Learned from Writing

I am a (frustrated) writer. My thoughts are my pen.
Life is my paper. The world is my reader.
God is my publisher.

Here are some of the many things I learned from writing:

1. Be sensible
To be aware with the simplest things of life, because even the most insignificant object we could think of, have its own story to tell.

2. See beyond the obvious
Most of the time we are deceived by our eyes. A laughing friend doesn't always mean a happy person. A cluttered desk doesn't always mean a busy employee. A hectic schedule doesn't always mean a full life.

3. Appreciate
The happiest people are not the one who have everything in life, most of the time they are the ones who have less yet master the art of being grateful.

4. Evaluate life
Inspired from one of my favorite quotes by Socrates, "An unexamined life is not worth living for."  We need to review and check our life every once in a while. Knowing where we are is the best gauge how and when to move forward.

5. Keep writing!